Note for November’s missed update: This month was a lot better. It wasn’t perfect and my stats will show that but I did accomplish some things that were on my list! Goals are November & December.

Yes, another post using the same exact picture but this time I’m pleased with what I’ve done. I started the 4-Hour Body again… My goal is to do better so one day I can do it perfectly and eventually try the “meatless machine” mentioned in the book. So far I haven’t had one perfect week but you know what? As of this morning I’ve officially lost weight. I’ll go back slightly by saying I gained way more than I’d like to admit by emotionally eating, giving up and having a looooooooong pity party. However as previously stated I am not going for perfection instead progress, healthy changes and eventually a new lifestyle are my main goals. And to my surprise it is working!! I don’t find myself binge eating on cheat day like I used to. I enjoy cooking even on cheat day which I thought would never happen. I also don’t dive head first into a giant mound of cheese which used to be one of my favorite things to do on cheat day. Bonus I discovered I actually feel better when I eliminate or limit dairy.

Actual Date: 1/9/2018

Weight: 229.3lbs

Measurements in inches (Forgot)

Goal(s):

• Stick to some type of diet/ healthy meal plan (FAIL/ IP)
• Read something other than children’s books (Check)
  • The Adventures of Huckleberry Finn – finished
    • I’m counting this because it isn’t for his age group even though I started reading it for him
  • Told Under The Green Umbrella – finished
    • Doesn’t really count but I enjoyed it more than my son. I don’t think there were enough pictures to hold his attention
  • Treasure Island – finished
    • Not enough pictures to count for him so I’m counting this
• Exercise 4x/ wk (Fail)
• Post monthly updates on/after the 8th for accountability (?)
  • Missed November but this post is up so I guess Yes & No

All in all October – December were emotionally hard months. My son has been testing his boundaries. I haven’t been sleeping well. I really haven’t been liking who I am as a wife, mother (to human & animal) and April thus the long pity party. Despite these feelings I managed to make the changes needed to improve. No I don’t have dramatic pictures to show off like I’d hoped; what I do have is a better understanding of self and hope for the future. I have clear goals written down that I plan on displaying so when things get hard I can remind myself of what I need to focus on in order to improve.

And for those reading this if you are in a similar situation: It CAN and WILL get better we just have to take it one step at a time 🙂